Thelema Lodge
Ordo Templi Orientis
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December 1994 e.v. at Thelema Lodge
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A survey of magical fundamentals is offered at the lodge on Friday evening 23rd December at 7:00. Intended especially for initiates of the Minerval degree, this workshop is open to all members and non-members alike. Tammy will offer instruction and suggestions for beginners on basic banishing, the practice of the magical diary, Liber Resh, the theory of correspondences, and the Holy Books of Thelema.
NOW we have discovered pantomorphism. We have broken down the line between man and monkey, nay, between man and moss and malachite. We can still argue that nothing has a soul, or that everything has a soul; but the half-way houses have lost their licenses.
MANY of us are become conscious of this truth: and, reaching out and up on our new wings, are at times liable to dizziness, to spiritual cremnophobia, agarophobia, claustrophobia --- and nostalgia is in any case become quite normal to us.
I REFER to Louis Umfraville Wilkinson and John Cowper Powys. In the latter his "Eureka" is so vivid that it resembles the cry of an epileptic; the former bears himself more godlike, the cynical yet caressing smile of some hermaphrodite child of Pan and Apollo quivering faintly upon his lips. Powys makes you want to go out and invent something deliciously damnable; Wilkinson makes you feel that everything you have ever done is damnably delicious. The former reveals to you the possibilities of life; the latter reveals you to yourself as a past master of all actualities.
BUT why (ask!) should we so uniformly perceive this curious development as evil? Wilkinson, it is true, is beyond the illusion of good and evil; not so with Powys, whose characters mostly understand themselves as unfathomable abysses, haunted by nameless horrors. The reason is simple: Powys is temperamentally a Christian. The soul is "deceitful above all things and desperately wicked"; therefore its will is evil; therefore its sex-instinct is evil; therefore its universe is evil. Such is the Puritan sorites; and to the inverted Puritan, whose pleasure consists of inventing "sins" in order to commit them, the Pagan simplicity of a Wilkinson is rather tragic. For the Pagan accepts joyfully the Law of Liberty: "Every man and every woman is a star": "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law." He delights in his independence, in pursuing the glory of his orbit, free, self-balanced, inscrutable, ineffably alive. The mind which is bound to the Christian philosophy, the clinging, parasitic, Oedipus-complex mind, dare not confront Immensity. In a word, a Christian, when he dies, wants to go to heaven; a Pagan shrugs his shoulders and takes things as they are.

| Far out beyond our lace of bars | |
| Among the sprinkled world of stars | |
| We find, at their swift play, the knaves, | |
| The gossipers, the spectrum waves | |
| That leap from out the fiery hearts | |
| Of countless of the starry darts | |
| That stud the blackened blank of space. | |
| Humming joyfully in its race | |
| This willful, gay, precocious light | |
| Will have its sway in bursting flight | |
| Until vibrations dance is slowed | |
| The stardust of the suns | |
| Is sowed. | |
| Lashing out on its flashing wings | |
| Around the universe it swings | |
| For shy light is the fleeing prey | |
| Of every swaggering cosmic ray | |
| That struts along the aisles of space | |
| And brags of this far distant place | |
| Or, floating in the void close by | |
| A blazing sun that brights the sky. | |
| For by a random chance it sprang | |
| From out a nova's bursting pang | |
| Then, lanced out through out galaxy | |
| And on and on | |
| Infinity. | |
| With streaming, rainbowed plume aloft | |
| It charges out in brave assault | |
| To scatter wide on cosmic dust | |
| And only then, with driving spent | |
| Can it find quiet or content | |
| From white searing heat, spreading rife, | |
| This is the ultimate of life! | |
| Of power, flooding from its source | |
| To dissipate its heaving force | |
| Throughout the limbo of the night | |
| That shrouds and swallows | |
| Eager light. | |
| The rip tides of eternity | |
| Pulse slowly in maturity | |
| As, when unto death relinquished | |
| The last faint fires are extinguished | |
| And glowing radiation pale | |
| Comes sifting down the spectrum scale. | |
| The time clocks of the suns are slowed | |
| And all the hall where once they glowed | |
| Is now a vaulted, hollow husk | |
| Where light has played from Dawn to Dusk | |
| When on this feral cosmic sea | |
| Triumphs the final | |
| Entropy. | |
Originally published in The Grady Project 3 (Oakland: Thelema Lodge, O.T.O., March 1988).
Derived from a lecture on 7/22/87 e.v. by Bill Heidrick
Copyright © Bill Heidrick
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I wrote down their numerical working-out. You add fifty for Nun, one for
Aleph, normally not using the final values of the letters, to end up with 51.
You can reduce that to 6. That's 6 on the Tree of Life for Tipheret. Also,
the Hebrew letter Vau is 6. Aleph in the Golden Dawn system corresponds to
the Fool in Tarot and Nun to Death. That's two Tarot trumps from the two
Hebrew letters. If you look up in the Sepher Yetzirah, 777 or Paul Foster
Case's little book, Highlights of the Tarot, you can find other stuff. Aleph
and Nun have their name spellings, which can yield other numbers and
correspondences. Those names mean "Ox" and "Fish". Tipheret means "beauty".
That gives you two or three words for meditation. You can take the
astrological correspondences: Air for Aleph, Scorpio for Nun and Sun for
Tipheret. There are directions in space associated with the letters: Aleph is
a vertical central line above to below. Nun is the direction to the
Southwest. That may seem strange, so try sitting down and imagining a line
straight down through the middle of your body. Then imagine another line
paralleling that first one to the Southwest. Just think about it. It's very
abstract, no conditions, no complications, not a lot of stray associations.
It's a simple and pure meditation. There are traditional things associated
with the letters. Aleph is sometimes thought of as the Breath of Life,
Spirit, Ruach. Nun sometimes has the qualities of change and motion
associated with it. These are interpretations that are given to those
letters. You can say "Life moves", "Life changes" --- that's Aleph and Nun.
The main thing is to have a system that yields a lot of compound subjects for meditation. Each individual subject fans out into many other subjects, some
very abstract and some very simple. There are other things that are
associated with these letters, e.g. "Intelligences", somewhat later than the
old Sepher Yetzirah, but associated with the letters and Sephirot. In one
variation of that tradition, Aleph is called the "Fiery" or "Scintillating
Intelligence", Nun the "Imaginative Intelligence". Meditate on that:
thinking that is fiery or scintillating, thinking that's imaginative and
brings out new things. Paul Case liked to associate the 12-tone scale of the
piano keyboard with Hebrew letters. If you are into Music you can play E-
natural against G-natural for Aleph and Nun to meditate on that sound
combination. The Golden Dawn had four colors for each. If you are artistic,
you can meditate on those colors. If you are not presently musical or
artistic, here's a reason to explore those interests. All Hebrew letters are
classified into several groups. Aleph is called a Mother Letter. Nun is the
sixth Single Letter. There are properties and traditions that apply to them.
The Mother Letters are the primal sounds. The Single Letters are compounded
of those sounds. The Double Letters are variations on those sounds. Here is
a primal thing giving an issue, Aleph a Mother Letter and Nun a Single Letter.
: "The Ox falls past the Sun. The Ox
is stuck tight in the spinning rounds of the Fish who chases his tail." Well,
you've obviously got to do something more than just saying "Ox", "Sun" and
"Fish". Taking the elemental and astrological: "Air blows past the sun. The
maddened bull rushes into the nest of scorpions (scorpio)". Play with these
things. This is the first pass. A nice thing about the 231 gates; there are
two ways of organizing them. You can hit each gate twice without having to do
it all in the same succession. The first pass runs through
,
,
,
,
, and so on. The next time it's
,
, and so on. Each time that you
start with another letter, repeat as many of the previous gates as there have
been letters before that current one. The second time around, instead of just
lining them up and checking them out with simple meditation, sit and try to do
automatic writing. After meditating once on a particular pair of letters,
mechanical comparisons of correspondences won't be necessary. Just get into
it. In the case of
, there are 21 meditations before you hit it again as
. Write down the feelings and thoughts:
-- "The son of the sun enters
the world but to die and to rise again. You Oh Lord," &c., &c. Eventually
this will evolve out into something more, one way of working with the
Abramelin system.Next month: On your own.
Feb 12. 1923 e.v.
Signed by Alostrael 31-566-31. Virgin Guardian of the Sangraal.
and then by The Knight Guardian of the Sacred Lance, Ninette Fraux, Estai 516, Betty Loveday.
| similes (one is a duplicate)----------------------------------- | 3 | ||
| Satanists called Christians------------------------------------ | 1 | ||
| name of a person (Fr. Lucifer)-------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| figures of speech (i.e. left Lucifer at the door)-------------- | 1 | ||
| poetic salutation (O' Lucifer)--------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| Lucifer saved eventually (see below)---------------------------- | 1 | ||
| Lucifer is not Satan (see below)---------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| "Daughter of Lucifer and accomplice of Prometheus"------ | 1 | ||
| Rhetorical question-------------------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| Book review, scurrilous remark------------------------------ | 1 | ||
| Book review, non scurrilous---------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| Warning against pride----------------------------------------- | 1 | ||
| Poetic image linking Lucifer, Satan & Christ (below)--------- | 2 (dup) | ||
| Not Satan, but one of the princes of evil--------------------- | 1 | ||
| As Brahma (part of a general assault on religions) (below)--- | 2 (dup) | ||
| As planet Venus------------------------------------------------ | 1 | ||
| Acceptance of common usage (MTP below)out of frustration-- | 1 | ||
| Other poet using the word "Lucifer"-------------------------- | 1 |
Equinox Vol. I, No. 10, page 23 supplement:
Eq. I, 4:
Eq. I, 5:
Magick in Theory and Practice (MTP):
Conclusion: Except for the MTP reference, which context places as a defiance of popular prejudice more than an expression of belief, Crowley did not appear to make much use of "Lucifer" as a serious subject. Most references combining "Lucifer" and "Satan", few though they are, differentiate between the two.
Comment on Liber AL:
Confessions:
Equinox I, 1:
Eq. I, 10:
Eq. I, 2:
Eq. I, 5:
Gospel According to St. Bernard Shaw:
MTP:
Conclusion: Crowley used "Satan" most often in the Christian context as a term of common speech to indicate some image of myth suited to another subject under discussion; next most often as an anti-establishment slur, especially for a brief period in his late teens or early 20's when he followed "Satan" as an act of rebellion; more rarely but philosophically as a Miltonian ideal and positive image for ideas concealed by common prejudices; occasionally as an insult or joke, including categorization of his own public reputation. The more profound usages of "Satan" by Crowley appear to be totally irrelevant to Christian ideas.
The 1,260 occurrences of "Christ" (including "Christian", "Christmas" and
other combinations) in this sample indicate a greater interest in Christianity
than Satanism, per say. With so large a number, I have not analyzed the
patterns closely, but at significant number are positive. One is a usage of
devotion to Christ (Crowley's 5
= 6
G
D
motto). Most references to
"Christ" directly are quite positive, although very frequently contrary to
popular views of the historicity of "Christ". About half the references to
Christianity are negative, emphasizing "false doctrines" and vice pervading
Christian theology or tradition.
| 12/2/94 | Astrology of Sagittarius with Grace 7-9PM, Berkeley. Call to attend. | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/3/94 | Initiations 6PM (call to attend) | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/4/94 | Gnostic Mass 7:30PM Horus Temple | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/5/94 | Thelema Lodge Meeting 8:00PM (& Lodge History night) | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/10/94 | Initiations 2PM (call to attend) | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/11/94 | Sustaining Members Lunch 1PM (invitation only) | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/11/94 | Gnostic Mass 7:30PM Horus Temple | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/12/94 | Section 2 reading group, 8PM at OZ Lytton's Zanoni & Strange Story | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/14/94 | Magick in Theory and Practice class with Bill in San Anselmo 7:30PM | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/15/94 | Butterfly Net Computer Group 8:00PM | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/18/94 | Gnostic Mass 7:30PM Horus Temple | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/21/94 | Winter Solstice 6:23PM Ritual 6PM potluck 7PM | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/23/94 | Minerval Magic Class 7PM w/Tammy | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/24/94 | 777 Poetry Society 7:30PM w.Fr.P.I. | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/25/94 | Gnostic Mass 7:30PM Horus Temple | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/28/94 | Liber XV Study Group w. Bp. T Dionysys 8:00PM | Thelema Ldg. | ||
| 12/30/94 | Astrology of Capricorn with Grace 7-9PM, Berkeley. Call to attend. | Thelema Ldg. |
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