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Thelema Lodge
Ordo Templi Orientis
P.O.Box 2303
Berkeley, CA 94702 USA
December 1994 e.v. at Thelema Lodge
Announcements from
Lodge Members and Officers
We celebrate the Solstice this winter with the entry of Sol into
Capricornus at 6:23 on Wednesday evening 21st December. Join Thelema Lodge at
sunset and spend part of the year's longest night together. Our ritual, from
which the quotation above is excerpted, is entitled "The Portal of the Sky
God", and will be directed by Brother Drax. It begins at 6:00 PM, with a pot-
luck feast to follow at 7:00. All attending please contact the lodge officers
in advance to help coordinate the menu.
His Grace Bishop T Dionysus conducts a monthly study group working with the
text of the Gnostic Mass, which meets on Wednesday 28th December at 8:00 in
the lodge library. Questions and insights are invited from officers and
communicants alike (in person or in correspondence), with all aspects of Liber
XV and the E.G.C. open for discussion. This study group is assembling
materials for a comprehensive commentary on the text, which can only succeed
as a widely inclusive community project, with help welcome from all.
This season's complete readings of The Vision and the Voice continue at Oz
House through Tuesday 20th December. The vision of each Aethyr is read at the
anniversary date and time of its original reception in the desert of North Africa in 1909 e.v. Consult Liber 418 for the schedule, or call Caitlin for
information at (510) 654-3580.
The fiery sign of Sagittarius is our focus at Grace's Astrological Workshop
on Friday evening 2nd December, from 7:00 to 9:00 in Berkeley. This
multidimensional and dual-bodied sign offers its free spirit, open, honest
optimism, independence, and generosity. The archer ever aspires to
intellectual and spiritual heights, and also retains the Sagittarian
reputation for the enjoyment and spontaneity of sexual pleasure. Please call
ahead at (510) 843-7827 if you plan to attend.
Grace will also host a Capricorn workshop on Friday evening 23rd December
from 7:00 to 9:00. Often depicted as a Sea goat, rising from the deepest
psychic levels of the waters of the unconscious, to the greatest heights of
intellectual consciousness, the drive and ambition of Capricorn is evoked.
Her/his striving for purpose, perfection and practical achievement reflects
the innate search for the grail symbolized by this sign of the Winter
Solstice. All are welcome, but if you wish to attend please call 843-7827.
The Thelema Lodge Magick in Theory and Practice Series with Bill Heidrick
meets Wednesday evening 14th December at 7:30 in San Anselmo. Call (415) 454-
5176 for directions if attending for the first time. Our subjects for
discussion this month are taken from the appendices of the book, including the
"Notes on the Nature of the Astral Plane" which Crowley originally wrote for
Soror Rhodon (the novelist Mary Butts) at the Abbey of Thelema in the summer
of 1921 e.v.
Join Catilin at Oz House for the Section Two Reading Group on Monday
evening 12th December at 8:00. We will be discussing A Strange Story (1862)
and Zanoni (1845), the two magical novels of Lord Lytton. Edward Bulwer-Lytton, first baron Lytton, besides being one of the most popular novelists of
nineteenth century England, was a Member of Parliament and Colonial Secretary
before being elevated to the peerage. In a letter to Dr. W. Wynn Westcott on
24th March 1881, the masonic scholar Kenneth Mackenzie wrote "It has taken me
a quarter of a century to obtain them [the 'real degrees' of Rosicrucian
freemasonry] and the whole of the degrees are different to anything known to
the Roci. Society of England --- those few who have these degrees dare not
communicate them. Read H. Jennings again, and Zanoni. Even Lytton, who knew
so much, was only a Neophyte and could not reply when I tested him years ago."
MacGregor Mathers, who led the early Golden Dawn along with Westcott, was so
impressed with Lytton's Zanoni that his wife Moina called him "Zan" around the
house, and was thought by their friends to be following the example of the
novel's heroine, Viola.
A survey of magical fundamentals is offered at the lodge on Friday evening 23rd December at 7:00. Intended especially for initiates of the Minerval degree, this workshop is open to all members and non-members alike. Tammy will offer instruction and suggestions for beginners on basic banishing, the practice of the magical diary, Liber Resh, the theory of correspondences, and the Holy Books of Thelema.
Hang your sox in front of the fire and gather with us in the library at
Thelema Lodge for the 777 Poetry Society on Saturday 24th December at 7:30.
Frater P.I. organizes this group, which meets to read verse together every
month. Bring poems of your own choice to share with us.
The Thelema Lodge Butterfly Net computer club meets at 8:00 on Thursday
evening 15th December. There may be a demonstration and discussion of Adobe
Acrobat, if we can get the last few technical hitches out of the way. Acrobat
is a family of software products for converting documents to and from a platform-independent format. This format performs font-substitution for
screen and printer as needed, supports hypertext links, and is well suited for
online documents. Acrobat readers for DOS, Windows, Macintosh, and Unix are
available through the Internet at: httm://www.adobe.com
Library nights at Thelema Lodge are scheduled for Tuesday evening 13th
December and Thursday evening 29th December, beginning at 8:00. Please make
it a habit to contact the lodge a day or two before planning to attend library
nights. We sometimes reschedule these dates according to individual requests,
and the library can often be open by special arrangement to suit the study
requirements of members.
Thelema Lodge Meeting and Lodge History Night will be held on Monday
evening 5th December at 8:00. In recent months, much of our calendar
scheduling has been handled by individual arrangement of members with the
lodgemaster, and the convenience of this system seems to suit our needs. The
evening of lodge meeting still serves as a forum for suggestions and concerns
from members, and also as a deadline for the coordination of the following
month's calendar activities. Meetings may also include more wide-ranging
inquiry into our history and traditions, and possible future directions for
our lodge.
The lodge hosts a special luncheon meeting for Sustaining Members on Sunday
afternoon 11th December at 1:00. Call for details.
Sirius Oasis will not be holding its regular meeting this month; members
should contact the Oasis Master at (510) 527-2855 for information regarding
upcoming activities. In January the Oasis will resume meeting on the second
Wednesday of each month.
I HAVE a liver. This organ is so constituted that if, at midnight, at the
Cafe des Beaux Arts, I consume a ham sandwich with its own weight in mustard,
and a pint of iced coffee, the result is similar to, but more urgent than that
alleged of a dose of a quarter of a grain of morphia. A sleepless night of
violent and concentrated, yet widely roaming, thoughts, passionate yet
pellucid, is obtained at this triing cost: I perceive and glorify the infinite
goodness of God.
The ancients did not know these things; great classics (still unappreciated
in some quarters, 'tis to be feared), like the authors of East Lynne and of
Lady Audley's Secret, show no acquaintance with these phenomena. When good
Queen Victoria wept for priceless Albert these things were not so. At least,
Emily Bronte, she alone, foresaw the possibilities of today.
The incalculable increase of human knowledge has been such that no mind can
follow it. I have sat at meetings of the Chemical Society where only two or three of the eminent men present were competent to discuss the paper read;
perhaps not more than a dozen could even follow it. The mind of man has,
therefore, developed like a cancer, thrusting out tentacles in every
direction, depositing strange poison even in the remotest tissues, and bearing
no relation, save the most malignant enmity, to the rest of the structure. We
have known too much; we have lost our standards of measurement. In East Lynne
it is merely a question of the Ten Commandments. All our motives, as our
acts, were as simple as they are --- in those dear dead days beyond recall!
NOW we have discovered pantomorphism. We have broken down the line between
man and monkey, nay, between man and moss and malachite. We can still argue
that nothing has a soul, or that everything has a soul; but the half-way
houses have lost their licenses.
Zola, in a vague symbolic way, makes his still or his locomotive accomplice
in his tragedies; but it is only the modern pantomorphist who makes the
seaweed and the spindrift characters in his novel as active as its human
protagonists. It is really the old animism, the old demonology, come again,
the Rosicrucian doctrine of elementals burst into sudden flower; and it comes
triumphant over all its enemies, because it has placed itself beyond the reach
of criticism, basing itself as firmly on the Academic Scepticism as on the
Academic Theology. No self-consistent theory of the universe can rule it out.
Pari passu has come --- almost as part of this --- the discovery of the human
soul. In the old days a man was a man and a rock was a rock, "and no damned
nonsense about it, sir" --- which nonsense consisted in persistence at "But
what is a man? What is a rock?" and ended, as above stated, in pantomorphism.
So also our souls were not souls; we were going to heaven or hell or
purgatory, and there was nothing to worry us. But what are "we," asked the
man of science, and ended by the discovery: "Every man and every woman is a
star." The soul is now recognized as an individual substance, beyond the
categories of time and space, a king in itself; not one of a group, but
capable of its own destiny. The old theory of stars --- night-lights in God's
bedchamber or holes in the floor of heaven --- has gone the way of phlogiston.
We no longer confuse Sirius with Aldebaran. Each is itself. Just so every
man is Himself, with his own Way to Heaven.
MANY of us are become conscious of this truth: and, reaching out and up on our
new wings, are at times liable to dizziness, to spiritual cremnophobia,
agarophobia, claustrophobia --- and nostalgia is in any case become quite
normal to us.
Hence the psychonosologists have begun to construct manuals of spiritual
pathology. They have hardly done anything even to describe the varieties of
disease. Von Krafft-Ebing was the first to gain popular appreciation. He saw
(at least) that the Seventh Commandment was not a simple matter of the divorce
court, and even got a glimpse of the fact that to inhale the perfume of a
gentian on the mountain-side may imply a sexual "abnormality" more profound
and possibly more terrible than a thousand rapes. He erred (he has since seen
the error) in classing these manifestations as disease. They are "variations"
in the Darwinian sense, evidence of the growth of the race. The ox, the
savage, the Victorian, the modern American, the cave-man, do not suffer in
this way from the specialization of the functions of the soul. But since
these phenomena are undoubtedly accompanied by severe distress, we are at
present justified in speaking of psychonosology.
Now, the soul is eternally silent; it expresses itself only through the
sexual instinct and its branches, Art and Religion. The Unconscious Will of a
man is, therefore, his sex-instinct, in the first place. Therefore, this new
passionate growth of his new-found soul must perforce express itself in sexual
abnormality. Freud and Jung have done much to trace sex in the unconscious
mind, in symbolic thinking, in instinctive selection of literary metaphor, and
so on; Jung, in particular, has brilliantly perceived that sex expresses the
Unconscious or True Will. But deeper thinkers, deeper because they are artists with the vision of Gods, not groping, purblind men of science, have
gone further, and discerned sex beating at the heart of man's simplest, most
conscious, and most rational acts.
I REFER to Louis Umfraville Wilkinson and John Cowper Powys. In the latter
his "Eureka" is so vivid that it resembles the cry of an epileptic; the former
bears himself more godlike, the cynical yet caressing smile of some
hermaphrodite child of Pan and Apollo quivering faintly upon his lips. Powys
makes you want to go out and invent something deliciously damnable; Wilkinson
makes you feel that everything you have ever done is damnably delicious. The
former reveals to you the possibilities of life; the latter reveals you to
yourself as a past master of all actualities.
It is needless, I trust, to insist that these masters have left Krafft-
Ebing and his school with Dens and Liguori --- nay, they have buried him far
deeper. For the older writers did really understand the appalling
possibilities of "innocent" things, though their simple standard of right and
wrong prevented their perception of whither their facts tended. But Wilkinson
and Powys see more clearly. They know that one can morally contaminate a
soap-bubble, if one go the right way to blow it, defile the virginity of a
valley by looking at it, or corrode the soul of a strawberry by refusing to
eat it.
It will be hard for Puritan legislation to check the cerebralist!
BUT why (ask!) should we so uniformly perceive this curious development as
evil? Wilkinson, it is true, is beyond the illusion of good and evil; not so
with Powys, whose characters mostly understand themselves as unfathomable
abysses, haunted by nameless horrors. The reason is simple: Powys is
temperamentally a Christian. The soul is "deceitful above all things and
desperately wicked"; therefore its will is evil; therefore its sex-instinct is
evil; therefore its universe is evil. Such is the Puritan sorites; and to the
inverted Puritan, whose pleasure consists of inventing "sins" in order to
commit them, the Pagan simplicity of a Wilkinson is rather tragic. For the
Pagan accepts joyfully the Law of Liberty: "Every man and every woman is a
star": "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law." He delights in his
independence, in pursuing the glory of his orbit, free, self-balanced,
inscrutable, ineffably alive. The mind which is bound to the Christian
philosophy, the clinging, parasitic, Oedipus-complex mind, dare not confront
Immensity. In a word, a Christian, when he dies, wants to go to heaven; a
Pagan shrugs his shoulders and takes things as they are.
But, will he, nill he, these pantomorphopsychonosophilographers have
"unloosed the girders of the soul," as Zoroaster says, Wilkinson rather as a
chorister in love for the first time, Powys as a child that has lost its
mother; but the effect is the same. We must learn to take care of ourselves,
to be suns in ourselves, not plants lackeying a central orb. We must conquer
"air-sickness," the nostalgia for atavistic superstitions to comfort us. In a
few years we shall be as happy in being ourselves as we have hitherto been in
our dependence --- physical, mental, and moral --- upon others. Then, not till
then, will constructive work, the mapping-out of a free universe, become
possible. And in that day let us not forget the noble, the austere, the
elegant, the august spade work of these great
pantomorphopsychonosophilographers, John Cowper Powys and Louis Umfraville
Wilkinson. Cras ingens interabimus aequor.1
Far out beyond our lace of bars | |
Among the sprinkled world of stars | |
We find, at their swift play, the knaves, | |
The gossipers, the spectrum waves | |
That leap from out the fiery hearts | |
Of countless of the starry darts | |
That stud the blackened blank of space. | |
Humming joyfully in its race | |
This willful, gay, precocious light | |
Will have its sway in bursting flight | |
Until vibrations dance is slowed | |
The stardust of the suns | |
Is sowed. | |
Lashing out on its flashing wings | |
Around the universe it swings | |
For shy light is the fleeing prey | |
Of every swaggering cosmic ray | |
That struts along the aisles of space | |
And brags of this far distant place | |
Or, floating in the void close by | |
A blazing sun that brights the sky. | |
For by a random chance it sprang | |
From out a nova's bursting pang | |
Then, lanced out through out galaxy | |
And on and on | |
Infinity. | |
With streaming, rainbowed plume aloft | |
It charges out in brave assault | |
To scatter wide on cosmic dust | |
And only then, with driving spent | |
Can it find quiet or content | |
From white searing heat, spreading rife, | |
This is the ultimate of life! | |
Of power, flooding from its source | |
To dissipate its heaving force | |
Throughout the limbo of the night | |
That shrouds and swallows | |
Eager light. | |
The rip tides of eternity | |
Pulse slowly in maturity | |
As, when unto death relinquished | |
The last faint fires are extinguished | |
And glowing radiation pale | |
Comes sifting down the spectrum scale. | |
The time clocks of the suns are slowed | |
And all the hall where once they glowed | |
Is now a vaulted, hollow husk | |
Where light has played from Dawn to Dusk | |
When on this feral cosmic sea | |
Triumphs the final | |
Entropy. | |
Originally published in The Grady Project 3 (Oakland: Thelema Lodge, O.T.O., March 1988).
Derived from a lecture on 7/22/87 e.v. by Bill Heidrick
Copyright © Bill Heidrick
In this culture it's helpful to occupy your mind. We have so much going on
to distract us that we have to keep the thing busy. You can always try
standard things like Zen meditations. You might feel better. You might have
an experience. If you are going to take yourself apart and put yourself back
together, you will have to have a substantial battery of these things. Zen
meditations can do that, but they are a lot more than they seem. For example,
the sound of one hand clapping isn't accomplished by snapping the out-
stretched fingers of your right hand to your right palm. That's just a joke
to frustrate a Zen master. The sound of one hand clapping is symbolized by
holding the right hand vertically before the body, parallel to center line and
palm to left. Combine that with the sudden sense of sound where there is no
sound. Each separate Koan will produce another thing that can't really be
described in words. You must discover these meanings within yourself. There
are systems of koans. Koans are brief verses of apparent paradox, either by
internal contradiction or irrelevancy to context. Koans are intended to
produce conceptual stress for resolution by sudden insight. If you have a
book that says: "Try this one", you are being entertained. A teacher can tell
you which one to do next and say: "Ok, you've got that one. Move on." You
can try Alan Watts' books: The Spirit of Zen and The Way of Zen. You need a
system because you are doing something more than one little thing. Most of
these little meditations are sold for a buck as entertainment. Some of them
are better than that. In this culture you need such things. In some cultures
it is sufficient to have chants and koan-style meditations. The problem with
those is the need for a teacher. With the Abramelin approach, you are the
starting teacher; and you are seeking the ultimate teacher, called the Holy
Guardian Angel, or the Higher Self, &c. You can do this sort of thing here
with a human teacher or a book, but the chances of it working are less than in
some other places. This culture is full of yammerings and "belief that you
know things". In many other cultures, family can be a major problem. In this
culture, family tends not to be quite what it is elsewhere. Here, family is
often as not people you pick deliberately and have a hard time finding. In
other cultures family is what you were born into. You have no choice, and you are not leaving. That goes for whom you marry too; and, oh yes, you are going
to marry. The names of your kids were figured out 30 generations before you
came along. In such an environment, you need to get away before you can do
much, but you still need things that are familiar to you. In the West,
intellectual things may be very much more familiar than human things.
Consider the ancient map carved on a rock in the Camonica valley in the
Alps, one of the earliest maps known. Now you can drop a buck at a gas
station and pick up a map, all the while complaining that they used to be
free. In those days, the idea of shaping a picture of something that you can
never see but only walk was quite an outstanding leap in ideas. That
principle has been used in a lot of cultures. Some of them go hog wild and
make giant shapes, like Von Daniken tried to sell to people as landing fields
for space ships. Why would anybody do that? The Cerne Abbas Giant is a thing
like that in England. It's an enormous figure of a man with a club and a
prodigious hard-on carved in the chalk on a hillside in Dorset. In South
America you find some giant figures laid out in desolate places, but this
thing was definitely maintained for 1500 years or more. Every few years
somebody had to go over it and re-cut the sod to keep the exposed chalk
outline visible. People thought it was some Celtic relic. Then somebody took
an infrared photo from an aircraft and realized that the arm holding a club
originally also had a rug-like drape. Evidently that part had been abandoned
over the centuries while the main figure was re-cut and renewed. The drape
positively identifies the figure as Hercules, with club and lion skin. A
bunch of home-sick Romans carved it there, and it's been kept up ever since.
It must have impressed people. The Giant can be seen poorly from the ground,
but some of these great figures are only visible from the air. Such figures
are examples of order. It can be a valuable initiatory exercise to trace
ancient mysteries "on the ground" while formulating an image in the mind,
comprehending in toto what the "eyes" can see only in part.
The method I chose to organize my own work was the 231 gates. They
comprise all the combinations of pairs of Hebrew letters. You can
systematically arrange them. I meditated on each of them twice in a standard
pattern. That was done at 6AM and 6PM for a month or two. Then I had a one
day break and resumed. Finally, I got to the point that it didn't matter how
long the break took. An example: the thirteenth pair of Hebrew letters is .
I wrote down their numerical working-out. You add fifty for Nun, one for
Aleph, normally not using the final values of the letters, to end up with 51.
You can reduce that to 6. That's 6 on the Tree of Life for Tipheret. Also,
the Hebrew letter Vau is 6. Aleph in the Golden Dawn system corresponds to
the Fool in Tarot and Nun to Death. That's two Tarot trumps from the two
Hebrew letters. If you look up in the Sepher Yetzirah, 777 or Paul Foster
Case's little book, Highlights of the Tarot, you can find other stuff. Aleph
and Nun have their name spellings, which can yield other numbers and
correspondences. Those names mean "Ox" and "Fish". Tipheret means "beauty".
That gives you two or three words for meditation. You can take the
astrological correspondences: Air for Aleph, Scorpio for Nun and Sun for
Tipheret. There are directions in space associated with the letters: Aleph is
a vertical central line above to below. Nun is the direction to the
Southwest. That may seem strange, so try sitting down and imagining a line
straight down through the middle of your body. Then imagine another line
paralleling that first one to the Southwest. Just think about it. It's very
abstract, no conditions, no complications, not a lot of stray associations.
It's a simple and pure meditation. There are traditional things associated
with the letters. Aleph is sometimes thought of as the Breath of Life,
Spirit, Ruach. Nun sometimes has the qualities of change and motion
associated with it. These are interpretations that are given to those
letters. You can say "Life moves", "Life changes" --- that's Aleph and Nun.
The main thing is to have a system that yields a lot of compound subjects for meditation. Each individual subject fans out into many other subjects, some
very abstract and some very simple. There are other things that are
associated with these letters, e.g. "Intelligences", somewhat later than the
old Sepher Yetzirah, but associated with the letters and Sephirot. In one
variation of that tradition, Aleph is called the "Fiery" or "Scintillating
Intelligence", Nun the "Imaginative Intelligence". Meditate on that:
thinking that is fiery or scintillating, thinking that's imaginative and
brings out new things. Paul Case liked to associate the 12-tone scale of the
piano keyboard with Hebrew letters. If you are into Music you can play E-
natural against G-natural for Aleph and Nun to meditate on that sound
combination. The Golden Dawn had four colors for each. If you are artistic,
you can meditate on those colors. If you are not presently musical or
artistic, here's a reason to explore those interests. All Hebrew letters are
classified into several groups. Aleph is called a Mother Letter. Nun is the
sixth Single Letter. There are properties and traditions that apply to them.
The Mother Letters are the primal sounds. The Single Letters are compounded
of those sounds. The Double Letters are variations on those sounds. Here is
a primal thing giving an issue, Aleph a Mother Letter and Nun a Single Letter.
Look up these Hebrew letter pairs in a dictionary or lexicon. It turns out
that there are a lot of two-letter words in Hebrew. Aleph and Nun can go
either frontwards or backwards. Once you have words to play with, you can
figure out what they mean.
Sit down. Take every one of these combinations of correspondences and
write down the result of thinking or meditating about them. Do that even if
it doesn't make sense. Examples for : "The Ox falls past the Sun. The Ox
is stuck tight in the spinning rounds of the Fish who chases his tail." Well,
you've obviously got to do something more than just saying "Ox", "Sun" and
"Fish". Taking the elemental and astrological: "Air blows past the sun. The
maddened bull rushes into the nest of scorpions (scorpio)". Play with these
things. This is the first pass. A nice thing about the 231 gates; there are
two ways of organizing them. You can hit each gate twice without having to do
it all in the same succession. The first pass runs through
,
,
,
,
, and so on. The next time it's
,
, and so on. Each time that you
start with another letter, repeat as many of the previous gates as there have
been letters before that current one. The second time around, instead of just
lining them up and checking them out with simple meditation, sit and try to do
automatic writing. After meditating once on a particular pair of letters,
mechanical comparisons of correspondences won't be necessary. Just get into
it. In the case of
, there are 21 meditations before you hit it again as
. Write down the feelings and thoughts:
-- "The son of the sun enters
the world but to die and to rise again. You Oh Lord," &c., &c. Eventually
this will evolve out into something more, one way of working with the
Abramelin system.
Next month: On your own.
Feb 12. 1923 e.v.
On Saturday Feb 10, I Alostrael {Leah Hirsig} returned from marketing in
Cefalu at about 11 A.M. I found the Knight Guardian of the Sacred Lance
{Crowley}; Betty Loveday; Frater Aud {Raoul Loveday}, her husband; and Soror
Estai {Jane Wolfe} assembled on the court. The conversation seemed most
animated and I soon found that it had been brought about by Betty's complain
about Ninette Fraux. The nature of the complaint was the Ninette was slovenly
in her ways and that she, Betty, could not work with her.
The K.G.S.L. sided almost entirely with Betty, whereas I, knowing
conditions from a more intimate point of view took exception to some things
and agreed with others, siding with no one. Frater AUD being too ill, said
little, so little that I do not remember what.
Ninette was not present as her duties in the kitchen prevented. These
duties she had resumed for several days previous to Feb 10 in place of Betty,
who had been more or less ill for some time.
We however agreed to put the Abbey on a basis of discipline and order which
had lagged owing to the illness of all the members, at one time or another.
Peace reigned.
On Sunday (Feb 11) morning the newspapers sent to Frater AUD arrived. One
of the rules of the Abbey is that no newspapers are allowed. They distract
from the work. The K.G.S.L. had mentioned a few days previously that that was
the rule. The subject was discussed and Betty and Frater Aud agreed that as
it was a rule they would abide by it. (In admission to the Abbey each member
signs a promise to this effect). The K.G.S.L. then left the matter open for
consideration. Betty definitely promised that she would not read them.
The decision was then given that the original rule would be enforced.
A scene followed in which Betty was rude, insolent, and thoroughly unfit to
be in a room where her sick husband lay. Betty was for some years, 8 years
ago, an addict to cocaine, but cured herself by her own force of will after
official treatment failed completely.
The verdict was then given that if the papers were read she would have to
leave the Abbey in the afternoon. She said she would do so. (Discussing this
later the K.G.S.L. said that if necessary he would find the money to send her
to London.)
By 6 P.M. she had not left but she had read the papers. The K.G.S.L. asked
me to ask her to speak to him. She again refused. He then went to the room
and spoke to her.
Suddenly I heard the smashing of glass and knocking about of chairs etc.
She had suddenly started to scream and to swear and to throw things etc at the
K.G.S.L., who was asking her to discuss the situation quietly with him and the
rest, outside the sick room. There was a lighted oil lamp in the room, also
an oil stove. I then went into the room and found Betty kicking the K.G.S.L.
who was holding her, she being in violent hysterics. Frater AUD got out of
his bed, scarcely able to stand. There were bottles and a glass on the bed;
they were smashed. I tried to keep him away from these; she rushed to him and
after about 10 minutes we got him out of the room into a quiet warm one.
She, in the meantime, made preparations to leave. Soror Estai, by order of
the K.G.S.L. stayed in the room with her, talked kindly, sensibly and calmly
to her, but Betty insisted on leaving, much to the distress of her husband.
Her parting words were "Good-bye Raoul, send down my passport tomorrow."
We knew that she would go to the Hotel but her husband was worried that she
might do something desperate; sleep out and probably get pneumonia.
Soror Estai saw Betty at the hotel this morning (Monday Feb 12). She
threatened to telegraph her father-in-law, to see the Commissario of Cefalu,
and to go to the British Consul in Palermo.
Later (11 A.M.) I took down a letter from her husband begging her to
return.
This is correct as far as my personal knowledge is concerned.
Signed by Alostrael 31-566-31. Virgin Guardian of the Sangraal.
and then by The Knight Guardian of the Sacred Lance, Ninette Fraux, Estai 516, Betty Loveday.
(Frater AUD was too ill to be bothered for his signature, but he read this
in the presence of Betty and myself on her return to the Abbey sometime after
noon of the same day. The conditions for her return were the signature of
this and a letter written to the British consul as per enclosed. Alostrael).
{Enclosure not extant}.
similes (one is a duplicate)----------------------------------- | 3 | ||
Satanists called Christians------------------------------------ | 1 | ||
name of a person (Fr. Lucifer)-------------------------------- | 1 | ||
figures of speech (i.e. left Lucifer at the door)-------------- | 1 | ||
poetic salutation (O' Lucifer)--------------------------------- | 1 | ||
Lucifer saved eventually (see below)---------------------------- | 1 | ||
Lucifer is not Satan (see below)---------------------------------- | 1 | ||
"Daughter of Lucifer and accomplice of Prometheus"------ | 1 | ||
Rhetorical question-------------------------------------------- | 1 | ||
Book review, scurrilous remark------------------------------ | 1 | ||
Book review, non scurrilous---------------------------------- | 1 | ||
Warning against pride----------------------------------------- | 1 | ||
Poetic image linking Lucifer, Satan & Christ (below)--------- | 2 (dup) | ||
Not Satan, but one of the princes of evil--------------------- | 1 | ||
As Brahma (part of a general assault on religions) (below)--- | 2 (dup) | ||
As planet Venus------------------------------------------------ | 1 | ||
Acceptance of common usage (MTP below)out of frustration-- | 1 | ||
Other poet using the word "Lucifer"-------------------------- | 1 |
Equinox Vol. I, No. 10, page 23 supplement:
Lucifer, of whom the dark ages have made the genius of evil, will be truly
the angel of light when, having conquered liberty at the price of infamy, he
will make use of it to submit himself to eternal order, inaugurating thus the
glories of voluntary obedience.
Ibid:
The fallen angel is not Lucifer the light-bearer; it is Satan, who
calumniated love.
Eq. I, 4:
By Thy most secret and Holy Name of Apophis be Thou blessed, Lucifer, Star
of the Dawn, Satan-Jeheshua, Light of the World!
Eq. I, 5:
And Satan is worshipped by men under the name of Jesus; and Lucifer is
worshipped by men under the name of Brahma; and Leviathan is worshipped by men
under the name of Allah; and Belial is worshipped by men under the name of
Buddha.
Magick in Theory and Practice (MTP):
This has led to so much confusion of thought that THE BEAST 666 has
preferred to let names stand as they are, and to proclaim simply that AIWAZ ---
the solar-phallic-hermetic "Lucifer" is His own Holy Guardian Angel, and "The
Devil" SATAN or HADIT of our particular unit of the Starry Universe.
Conclusion: Except for the MTP reference, which context places as a defiance of popular prejudice more than an expression of belief, Crowley did not appear to make much use of "Lucifer" as a serious subject. Most references combining "Lucifer" and "Satan", few though they are, differentiate between the two.
The references to "Satan" are more complex. Most are simile, metaphor,
derogatory or associations of "Satan" to Christianity. Some appear to use the
term in a non-traditional fashion, examples of the latter below. There are a
couple of poems dedicated to Satan, but they appear to be intended either for
humor or shock value. Satan is also associated with Saturn in Astrology, the
Sun in mythology (not Astrology), and several philosophical ideas and ancient
deities not relevant to Christian concepts of a Devil or Personification of
Evil. The first example here associates "Satan" to a geographic direction.
Comment on Liber AL:
It is also to be considered that Nu is connected with North, while Had is
Sad, Set, Satan, Sat (equals "Being" in Sanskrit), South.
Confessions:
I simply went over to Satan's side; and to this hour I cannot tell why.
My satanism did not interfere with it at all; I was trying to take the view
that the Christianity of hypocrisy and cruelty was not true Christianity.
The problem of life was not how to satanize, as Huysmans would have called
it; it was simply to escape from the oppressors and to enjoy the world without
any interference of spiritual life of any sort.
For instance, if I mention a beetle I expect the reader to understand an
allusion to the sun at midnight in its moral sense of Light-in-Darkness; if a
pelican, to the legend that she pierces her own breast to feed her young on
her heart's bleed; if a goat, to the entire symbolism of Capricornus, the god
Pan, Satan or Jesus (Jesus being born at the winter solstice, when the sun
enters Capricorn); if a pearl, to the correspondences of that stone as a
precious and glittering secretion of the oyster, by which I mean that
invertebrate animal life of man, the Nephesch.
Equinox I, 1:
Or vice versa, friend, if you are a Satanist; 'tis a matter of words ---
words --- words.
Eq. I, 10:
and Satan is only so incoherent and so formless because he is made up of all
the rags of ancient theogonies.
Eq. I, 2:
Thus it happens that until you become God, God Himself is in Reality The
Tempter, Satan, and the Prince of Darkness, who, assuming the glittering robes
of Time and Space, whispers in our ears: "Millions and millions and millions
of eternities are as nothingness to me; then how canst thou, thou little mote
dancing in the beam of mine eye, hope to span me?
Eq. I, 5:
SMAL, Satan so-called, but really only Samael, the accuser of the brethren,
unpopular with the Rabbis because their consciences were not clear. Also OMMV SThH, Ommo Satan, the Satanic Trinity of Typhon, Apophis, and
Besz; also ShM IHShVH, the name of Jesus.
Gospel According to St. Bernard Shaw:
Refreshed, he continued: "The men who are willing by this means to become
the saviours of their country shall be called the Synagogue of Satan, so as to
keep themselves from the friendship of the fools who mistake names for
things."
MTP:
This "Devil" is called Satan or Shaitan, and regarded with horror by people
who are ignorant of his formula, and, imagining themselves to be evil, accuse
Nature herself of their own phantasmal crime.
Satan is Saturn, Set, Abrasax, Adad, Adonis, Attis, Adam, Adonai, etc.
This serpent, SATAN, is not the enemy of Man, but He who made Gods of our
race, knowing Good and Evil; He bade "Know Thyself!
Thus, in low grades of initiation, dogmatic quarrels are inflamed by astral
experience; as when Saint John distinguishes between the Whore BABALON and the
Woman clothed with the Sun, between the Lamb that was slain and the Beast 666
whose deadly wound was healed; nor understands that Satan, the Old Serpent, in
the Abyss, the Lake of Fire and Sulphur, is the Sun-Father, the vibration of
Life, Lord of Infinite Space that flames with His Consuming Energy, and is
also that throned Light whose Spirit is suffused throughout the City of
Jewels.
He is the Lord of the Sabbath of the Adepts, and is Satan, therefore also
the Sun, whose number of Magick is 666, the seal of His servant the BEAST.
In AL note that Saturn or Satan is exalted in the House of Venus or
Astarte, and it is an airy sign.
Conclusion: Crowley used "Satan" most often in the Christian context as a term of common speech to indicate some image of myth suited to another subject under discussion; next most often as an anti-establishment slur, especially for a brief period in his late teens or early 20's when he followed "Satan" as an act of rebellion; more rarely but philosophically as a Miltonian ideal and positive image for ideas concealed by common prejudices; occasionally as an insult or joke, including categorization of his own public reputation. The more profound usages of "Satan" by Crowley appear to be totally irrelevant to Christian ideas.
The 1,260 occurrences of "Christ" (including "Christian", "Christmas" and
other combinations) in this sample indicate a greater interest in Christianity
than Satanism, per say. With so large a number, I have not analyzed the
patterns closely, but a significant number are positive. One is a usage of
devotion to Christ (Crowley's 5 = 6
G
D
motto). Most references to
"Christ" directly are quite positive, although very frequently contrary to
popular views of the historicity of "Christ". About half the references to
Christianity are negative, emphasizing "false doctrines" and vice pervading
Christian theology or tradition.
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